Dear Anita,

I too use the same tricks as you do. In fact, I stopped having any kind of food measurer what so ever at home (not even for cocktails) and neither do I own a scale of any sort. I weight myself once a month with my nutritionist, who owns a PROPER scale and who tells me what the best way to gain proper weight is, without me feeling like I am becoming a puddle of fat. Exercising also has been helpful, although I have to control myself not to go more than 3 times a week, so it does not become more of a bulimic reaction towards calories, rather than a search for a balanced health state.
I also stopped buying clothes at normal stores from normal shopping malls… I’ve also been buying handmade/second hand clothes that are mostly one size fits all.
Nonetheless, I advise you to take such measures in your life like I myself did and helped me release some of the anxiety I felt everytime I had to eat a proper meal.

I’m still searching for hope everyday, and am more than willing to talk about this as much as necessary, if only to feel understood and a little less insane.

Thank you for sharing your struggles 🙂

Mary K x