Dear pinkiepops:

Maybe you have OCD and you are not ready for a relationship. In your first thread you clearly stated that you wish you could be in a relationship so to make him happy, because you felt so guilty imagining him sad.

It seems to me that you are not ready for a relationship and that you have things to work on in therapy first, before considering a relationship and while not dating at all.

Can you explain this to your on-again-off-again boyfriend? Just tell him you are … not well and you are very sorry for the trouble, that you very much regret your part in this on-again-off-again, but you can’t handle (no matter how intensely you want to make him happy!)- you just can not handle having a relationship.

End it and keep it ended so you can be free and he has the opportunity to move on. I think it is best for the two of you.

anita