Dear Butterfly:

You make sense and at the same time you are logical, do accept that the urge to get on that ride will appear again and maybe already have since your last post. This is natural and understandable that you have this urge. It will be your maturity and wisdom to not react to that urge by getting on that ride.

No matter how strong the urge and what “sense” it is seeming to make any particular moment (rationalizing the irrational urge)- talk real sense to yourself with compassion for your self.

Whenever you think of him, of what he will do next; about his motivations, etc. change your focus from being on him- to being on yourself. What is your motivation? To stop your suffering. Why? Because you deserve peace of mind. How? Exiting the theme park every single time you find yourself in it (the urge … dragging you there).

anita