To VJ:

Yes, I am at the point of asking a lot of questions but that does not mean I don’t have numerous answers(most of them controversial-which is not helping me at all) in my head. I searched through the resource you send above and I found some usefull stuff and others’ experiences which makes me look to my problem as a minor one compared to others’. But I know that when it comes to having a awful things happening in your life it seems that they can prolong so much that the person experiencing it will start to think that it will last forever and to make things worse they will remind the good times that happened before and then it really gets tough.

I get that no one cannot achieve any progress if you sit there and murmur about the bad in life and they should be getting down to working out their problems. Maybe I just need a stronger push in my life so that I can start doing that… maybe te things that happen to me are for a reson and every time I think of that I get scared of myself and ask myself “am I really that bad person so that bad things happen to me”.

I understand and appreciate my time here and having this conversation with you as I don’t share a lot of things in my life because of the fear that people will think I am either crazy or making things up just for some time to get “famous”(and I don’t undesrand what kind of person will think that others want the attention of their close ones and friends by doing this). That is why I am here and I prefer to stay anonymous and share things with people I have never known so that I can hear their clear point of view and start looking things through clear glassess let’s say(I know it sound strange). What is more, I found this site googling for ways to stay positive and positive thinking therapy and I will get stuck on every single chance to make my problems not problems anymore, yet now I just feel like I am standing at the bottom of a trap and can’t see the light out there.