Dear mrsinconsolable:

Is the question for me? To fully heal may be impossible: to be “as good as new”. The injuries were done, you have the wounds as a consequence. You can heal a whole lot, over time, in psychotherapy with a competent, empathetic, hard working therapist.

You describe yourself as a happy young child, curious, outgoing, talked early… true for me too, so I heard. I was very active, running around, talking early, curious, investigating…

And then I was none of these things. At five or six things changed. I did a lot of healing but I don’t think I will ever go back to that curious, full of life, excited and excitable young child that I was. There is some magic in childhood, when it is a good childhood. A feeling of safety that once shattered, you can’t believe in again.

So as you do take the work of healing, the expectations of being made “as good as new” and experience life like a three year old are not realistic.

anita