AP85 – Thanks for your input. I know I need to make changes if any happiness is to follow and I know I am overdoing things with the victim mentality and self pity. The things you suggest I have tried multiple times and they don’t work for whatever reason. I am not sure why they don’t work other than to say there are forces within me that lead me to a very bad place in terms of how I feel. Believe me I have tried and battled against whatever it is that has caused me to get stuck where I am. The road to recovery is going to be a long one and I find that this message posting is very helpful to me as a way of getting things out of my system.