Hello

I am 100% responsible for my behaviour. I am working with 2 therapists and a nutritionist. I eat extremely well and i exercise. I am doing everything I can to help manage this.

My first relationship was actually a female, she was mentally and physically abusive, I wasn’t attracted to her and I was manipulated into the relationship at 17 years old after splitting with my boyfriend of 3 years, she befriended me. Due to the fear of killing herself if I left her, I stayed with her for 6 years. She attempted once and so did her dad. It took a lot of inner strength and courage to take myself out of that relationship.

My current relationship could not be more different he is loving and sensitive. We are pretty much perfect aside this current problem. He doesn’t know how to handle this side of me, because he has never dealt with it before. Again, its not his fault. I just struggle due to my conditions and “past”.

I have had A LOT of health problems and family problems, which are probably the result of all this – however, I have worked with a therapist for over 6 yrs working through past and current events and root causes – this is a long road and it has got better, but we still have a long way to go. I have just had a 3 hour session. If I have 2 bad days a month, I believe its progress – not perfect, but it can be resolved. I have spoken with both therapists, who have advised to support me during this time – not accept it, as i am making a change (which is very different from accepting my behaviour).