This past year I was in my first relationship ever, he was my first kiss and everything. Being in my early 20s, this was such a big deal because I went through all of my high school and college life not really having any romantic attention from anyone. Ours was a long distance type relationship, but we weren’t so far away that it was incredibly hard to see each other. The first few months were great – but then he went out of the country and did a total 180 on his behaviour about our relationship…even though we stayed in touch throughout his entire trip. When he came back, he was distant and totally not like before. We decided it was best to end things romantically, and still be friends. I initiated the friendship after our breakup, because I really loved him, and decided felt that I had made a mistake. We have a pretty good friendship at the moment, we message each other almost every day (kind of similar to when we were together), but he never wants to see me in person – and now we both live in the same city, he always just wants to text (never call or anything), and whenever I invite him to something, he always makes an excuse not to come – meanwhile, he goes to parties almost every weekend. I understand that this is just a friendship, but he would also send me mixed signals, hinting that he was still into me. My emotions can’t deal with this anymore, i just feel lonely and sad constantly, because I really want us to work out, but I’m too scared to confront him…mainly because I feel I’ll also lose the friendship we have. I feel like he really gets me sometimes, but other times he can be a real jerk. My plan is to cut him out of my life starting the new year…but part of me can’t let him go, I’m so confused as to what to do.