I began seeing someone in October and all was going well until about December time when things started to slide. When reflecting back it would always be me who initiated the messages. Before regretting not telling this person how I felt, I decided to tell them. I guess, it was quite selfish but I would have rather confessed than pretend my feelings never existed. Unfortunately the other person only saw me as a friend, despite signs and signals telling me otherwise. But I didn’t want to lose them, so I decided to be friends. Which was hard. Anway, to cut a long story short, this person is confused about their feelings for me and Im tired of putting effort. I belive that I should give this person some space, so I’ve stopped sending them messages. Im not despite sure what I’m doing is right, but I’m yet again in the same position as I was last year.
I’m 24 and never really experienced being in a relationship but an almost relationship, and it’s getting hard to believe it’s not me. That there is something about me that just never gets there.
Currently I’m feeling low in self-esteem and hope of ever finding anyone, my friend is right I’m too harsh on myself, I should love myself more, and be happy with being myself but I just can’t seem to. People keep telling there will be someone out there who deserves you, but to be quite frank I can’t see nor believe it.
What should I do?