Hi Johannah7, It’s been recently that I went through something similar to you. And it was the most difficult thing I’ve ever had to go through, I wasn’t sure I could even survive or if I wanted to. But I am here so you can see I made it. It sounds to me you need to ask yourself if this is the kind of life you are willing to live. If he truly loved you, he would have done everything he could to keep you, and to make you happy. I can’t say it won’t change, but I can say the odds are he won’t change. I believe he is doing the very same thing to the other girl too, and he is playing a game to keep you both tied onto his leash. It’s how he lives and breathes and it isn’t love with him. He says the same things to her that he says to you, and there isn’t what I call love in anything you have to say about him. You can’t change him, and you can’t change yourself to fix what his problem is and this is what is most likely making you sick as well. You are the only one that can decide what you are willing to do and how you will allow yourself to be treated. This man is toxic for you. And it is not love. Love means they want you to be happy, no matter what. And he doesn’t do that, nor does it sound like he is emotionally available to you. There are people like that and because you are the person you are, most likely a good heart, very empathic, that is what they are drawn to. Do a search online for Narcissitic personality disorder. You might see him described there. If he fits the picture, you need to let go of him. I wish you the best, it’s a tough one, but you can do it.