Dear Tessa:

I know binge eating- I binged big time, to the point of throwing up (involuntarily, simply too much food in a very short time). I was also obsessed counting calories in and calories out. Every time after a binge I made Rules, to never this and always that and broke those rules. I haven’t binged for a while but on a day like today, since I slept poorly last night (and my neighbor’s dog who is delightful every day when he visits chose to pee on my stuff in my bedroom….), the thought of bingeing crossed my mind and I ran calories numbers in my mind a few times today.

But I didn’t binge and I think I am over that. I strongly believe that you should, as suggested above, attend competent therapy as soon as possible to deal with the anxiety that lead to your disordered eating AND the anxiety resulting from your disordered eating.

Also, if contact with your mother and sisters are distressing you, end those contacts for a while, so that you can attend therapy and work on all you have to work on.

anita