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  • #144621
    anjum niklo
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    Hi

    I was in relationship with a man for last 6 years . He is very kind and very generous to me but his family never approved of the relationship and we just avoided talking to them for past 6 years. I never doubted his love , he have no reasons to doubt. Infact I on few occasions lied to him and gave him reason to doubt but I really loved him with all my heart and he knows it well.

    Few months back he tired speaking to his parents and they had huge arguments and at same time I kinda put pressure on him about sour future and insisted that he should be able to take a decision.  He got totally withdrawn and told me he can’t be with me anymore and he was crying and it followed with messy end crying every time both of us.

    He then decided he needs time and would talk to only once in a while .

    Now he calls me very 10th day and keep emphasising his love never changed . He still loves me like before and will continue doing same and I know he means it because he is a man of few words and never say a thing which he doesn’t mean.  But he also tells me that future is uncertain.  We might not get married but let it be like this for while and don’t expect too much .

    In this few months I met a man ,he is also very loving, ready to give me everything I want exactly.  He is 8 years older to me im 30year old. He is independent.  Head of an organization . Very caring and loving and expressive.  My parents are also very fond of him. I also like him and we can talk a lot but I just can’t get romantically involved with him .He is everything what a women would want in a husband . But I can’t seem to fall in love with him . And I can’t even tell him to wait because he is already running out of time  but he tells me he can wait and he will . But I really love my boyfriend and I’m not even sure I will ever feel for this man.

    Sometime I’m anxious about future. What if I loose this guy and in end my boyfriend just tell me ..he is sorry he can’t be with me, he tried his best buy can’t convince his parents .

    At same time I feel what if after marrying this new guy my life gets miserable because I won’t fall in love with him.

    Ideally this new guy is perfect but why in my  heart my boyfriend feels perfect.

    Please help me and give me your  advices I will be very grateful to you all

    #144761
    Anonymous
    Guest

    Dear anjum niklo:

    From my communication with people on this website, people from arranged-marriage culture, it is very unlikely for your ex boyfriend (still in contact presently) will marry you. According to your share, it is very unlikely, so it seems to me, that he will marry you.

    If your hope that there will be a marriage with your ex boyfriend is still ongoing, then this hope may very well be making it impossible for you to be emotionally available to the new man in your life.

    I think it will be wise for you to lose that hope. No contact with your ex boyfriend will mean that he will no longer feed that hope with his verbal expressions of love.

    anita

    #144779
    anjum niklo
    Participant

    Thank you so much for insight.

    But I would like tell that he really wants to be  be with me and im sure he is not thinking about anybody else. It’s just that he has a very different relationship with this parents that he just can explain his feelings .

    I’m not a kinda of a woman who will be in distress over a break up . Ofcourse its hurting me but most of time I’m ok and I can have fun and forget about him. And I’m trying very hard but It’s just not emotional but I’m physically not attracted to this new man. Otherwise I would have gone head i think so.

    Thank you

    #144787
    Craig
    Participant

    Anjum, you have more choices than choosing between your ex-boyfriend (who may not be an option anyway) and this new guy –  another choice is for you to be with nobody right now, except yourself.

    #144801
    Anonymous
    Guest

    Dear anjum niklo:

    You are welcome. Do you find this man unattractive, that is, the image of being physically intimate with him repulses you?

    anita

    #144823
    anjum niklo
    Participant

    @Craig you are right.  But it makes me so anxious thinking I’m might not ever get a man of my choice.


    @Anita
    yes I find him unattractive and thought of intimacy makes me cringe .I’m not even comfortable holding hands.But I like talking to him without any romantic tinge but I know it’s hard for him. I feel so guilty for using him emotionally when things were fough between me and my boyfriend.  But he tells he had fair idea things were not good between me and my boyfriend and he was secretly hoping to be with me so I don’t have to feel bad because he had an agenda too.

    I don’t know may be they both are not for me .

    #144885
    Anonymous
    Guest

    Dear anjum niklo:

    If you were not repulsed by him, not cringing with the thought of intimacy with him, then maybe there was a chance for an intimate relationship with him. A super strong physical attraction is not necessary, I believe, for a healthy, loving relationship. But cringing, that makes a healthy, loving relationship impossible. I would tell him, if I was you, that you are not attracted to him. Somehow tell him that, as gently as you can (with no details as to what about his body you are not attracted to !). In that way, you will be encouraging him to move on.

    If he will be willing to have a friendship with you accepting this is not at all likely to turn to a physical relationship, then be it.

    anita

    #145013
    anjum niklo
    Participant

    Hi Anita

    I’ve been every straight to him since becoming. I told him I can’t connect and feel anything and physical touch makes me awkward.  I was wondering what is this  I really like talking to him,  sharing my thoughts , expressing anything to him.I laugh a lot when I’m around by. But I never get a feeling to get close or intimate.

    May be I’m like talking to him because  I had a emotional void and he is good ears . He makes me feel most beautiful and desired .

    But I just can’t get close to him . And I’m afraid if I take a decision based on my anxiety of future and be with him , I may regret later in life and its not even fair for him

    #145053
    Anonymous
    Guest

    Dear anjum niklo:

    This 38 year old man makes you “feel most beautiful and desired”- that could lead to you feeling a physical desire to be with him, I am thinking. I also think that you being in contact with your ex boyfriend is in the way of this possibility.

    What your ex boyfriend told you and tells you when communicating with you every ten days or so, leads me to think that it is very unlikely that there will be a marriage there. As a man of few words (as you characterized him), when he tells you “that future is uncertain.  We might not get married’- I would take his word for it, with very little emphasis on the “might”.

    If you cut all contact with the ex boyfriend and put him in your past, lose all hope, then maybe you will build a feeling of comfort about being physically involved with the new man.

    anita

    #145135
    anjum niklo
    Participant

    Hi

    Thank you again.  I’m very practical in life . The breakup caused more pain and suffering to my boyfriend than it caused to me . I was able to gather myself in few days and live my life fully . Ofcourse there are weak moments when I break down and it happens to him also . He still keep my  pictures and and keep looking it at he tells me .  I think I’m able to move on provided I feel right about a man  but with this new man I just don’t feel it in me and he is looking for a marriage  . What if i regret my impulsive decisions and spoil our lives.  It’s not like I would be breaking up if I dont feel right later because marriage makes things more complicated.

    Certainly there is a tiny hope in me regarding my future with my boyfriend but I’m rational enough to kill it provided I meet a man who I will look forward spending my life.

     

    #145155
    Anonymous
    Guest

    Dear anjum niklo:

    I am glad you are practical in life. No doubt it will be a bad idea for you to marry this man for as long as the image of being physically intimate with him repulses you. Does he know you do not have a physical attraction to him personally, or does he think you are awkward about physical intimacy with men in general?

    anita

    #145181
    anjum niklo
    Participant

    Hi Anita

    He knows  for sure I don’t like him touching my hands etc.  But I didn’t tell him it’s because I’m not attracted to him ,ofcourse I don’t want him to lose his self confidence . He thinks I’m cold generally which is not the case I’m a sucker for  intimacy otherwise. But him I just can’t  . Usually my past records I get attracted to me as quick as possible but whenever I take more than few months  it’s just not for me. But some part of my brain tells me he is a catch otherwise expect for my feelings   (Sorry for being so calvulative ) but at the same time I wouldn’t use him for secure my life when I know wouldn’t be able to justice with him or the marriage.  I’m anxious about future that’s why cant let him go in my head and at same time my whole body mind heart doesn’t accept the idea of being with him .

    #145251
    Anonymous
    Guest

    Dear anjum niklo:

    A few posts ago you wrote: “I’ve been every straight to him (the 38 year old man) since becoming. I told him I can’t connect and feel anything and physical touch makes me awkward.” Well you haven’t been straight with him. I will explain: he thinks you are “cold generally”, that you have a problem with physical intimacy with any man. It makes sense to me that he is hoping that you will either become comfortable over time, with being physically intimate with him or that you will develop that desire. He hopes to be The One to … cure you from that general coldness. This can very well be his motivation and this motivation is misguided.

    It is misguided because he doesn’t have the correct information: that you are not generally cold, that you have and can experience sexual attraction to a man, only not with him. If he had this correct information, he could make a choice based on well.. correct information.

    But I suppose you don’t want to lose the possibility of getting married to a man who is a head of an organization, a man your family approves of (partly if not mostly because he is the head of an organization, and financially more well off than others, I assume). Am I correct?

    anita

    #145275
    anjum niklo
    Participant

    Thank you Anita for your reply again.

    Yes your are right, I don’t want to lose the possibility does that make me a awful human ?

    But he knows my past relationships and how close I was with them so obviously I’m capable of loving and being intimate  he knows that.  But I just told him I generally don’t like being clingy just so that he gives me enough  space.  He was  trying since there were no major problem with me and my boyfriend.

    And he as himself rejected so many women in past and some of them were beautiful so he knows when it doenst click it doesn’t .

    But now I feel like a terrible person . I wish I wasn’t anxious  about future and on top my family and close friends fueling my fear .

    #145295
    Anonymous
    Guest

    Dear Anjum niklo:

    You are not a terrible person for wanting to keep the option with this man open to you. Problem is it can become messy later, if he doesn’t know you are repulsed by him, he proceeds to propose, you feel especially anxious about your future, you buckle under this or that pressure and get married- that will be the mess you should avoid.

    I didn’t know you are anxious until I read the last two lines, anxious about the future. Can you share more about your anxiousness? And about how your family and close friends are fueling your fear?

    anita

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