I appreciate your replies and input. Im finding it so hard to let go of her. Im still completely in love with her and i feel unloveable if she doesnt love me. She is so cold and i dont know why. I havnt spoken to her in almost a week now and im very slowly healing. She is a very honest person and always has been and i know this from being with her. So i dont believe she is lying to me but damn its confusing. I pours my heart out about how i feel because she asked and her reply was if you arnt coping you may need to get help! I was like thanks.. i put my heart and soul into every relationship i get into and it always leaves me broken and angry at the world. I consider myself a kind caring heart and i put myself last and i feel there is nobody out there like me. I know thats mot true but it certainly feels like it at the moment. Anyway me and my work collegue who is going through the same thing have made a goal to no contact for a week then 2 then 3 and keep at it. I want my happiness and positive outlook back. I hate being broken.