Dear Anita,

I had to do a lot of research into all this. People I once dismissed as nuts now suddenly seem quite credible to me. People such as the late Dolores Cannon. According to her, what set the alarm bells ringing was the detonation of the atomic bomb in 1945. A lot of people have ‘incarnated’ since then to try to bring an end to the ‘beast system’. I don’t know if this is actually true, I am just grasping at any information I can get.

I don’t believe I am special, I believe I am extremely unfortunate. Nor do I suspect I am the only person who this has happened to. You have no idea just how frightening it is to be reminded on a daily basis that nothing of this existence is real. And once you learn that, you can’t unlearn it. My sense of self, of who I am and what I believe in, has been totally shredded.

There is no actual Heaven, there is only a consciousness, a state of happiness and bliss. But getting there is extremely frightening because you go through de-realization and de-personalization along the way. The higher your vibrational level, the less contact you wish to have with the material world, even your own family. Their often trivial pre-occupations just become white noise in the background. Sadly, people are not only asleep, they are retreating further and further into a virtual world of iPhones, Facebook and Twitter, and their children are following them. It is all very frightening for humanity from where I am standing, but they can’t see it. Yet I envy them in their ignorance. They are in a world which is familiar and comfortable to them.

There are no Kundalini teachers where I live. There is nothing except You Tube. To be honest, I find it very difficult to watch these people’s videos because they have a tendency to waffle and ramble. For people like me, it’s basically sink or swim. Learn or die. Old fashioned evolution.

Best wishes,

Tannhauser