Hi Anita,
You are definitely right. I seem to still want to hold on to what could have been, when reality is not that way at all. I went to visit him because he came to visit me twice, I assumed it was a good sign, but looking back, he was simply in that “infatuation” stage.
I know it is his pattern, but I really can’t believe how someone can be so intensely interested in someone, and the next day it all “disappears”.
I’ve asked if he would meet me for coffee this weekend, and all he mustered was “I might be able to do coffee..”. When I asked when would work best for him since I would have to plan around it, he hasn’t replied. I’m not sure if I should even bother asking again or not. I simply cannot believe this is the same person I was so infatuated myself. He seems like a totally different person to me now, and that what happened with us was all a dream. It doesn’t even feel real anymore.
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