Oh certainly, my Catholic beliefs are dead. And they are dead because God/Universe perhaps wanted me to see a bigger picture.

You mentioned a ‘shaking’. Here’s what Taoism says:

Tao means a road, path, way; and hence, the way in which one does something; method, doctrine, principle. The Way of Heaven, for example, is ruthless; when autumn comes ‘no leaf is spared because of its beauty, no flower because of its fragrance’

This has certainly been ruthless.

Best wishes,

Tannhauser