And I’m afraid he will settle for the first “nice girl” he meets and agrees to marry him.  I know this is not my problem to deal with, but I do care about him and it worries me a little.

On a somewhat different but related topic:

Being acknowledged as part of a couple is so important.  I am getting the full realization of this at the moment.  Especially by someone who claimed to have loved you.  Letting go of this hurt isn’t easy.  I don’t know what steps to take to make that happen.  I’m taking yoga classes, I have a few outside activities.  But mentality, I’m not all “there”.  He’s clearly not the cause of all that.  I have undealt issues steeming from my divorce that I never fully processed.

The bottom line is that I’ve been somewhat of a mess for the past year, and I am just tired of feeling this way. I want to move on!