Dear Lisa:

I feel sad that you are devastated, disappointed. I am very intrigued by your story, as you told it on this thread, have been intrigued from the beginning. The way you write, for example: “I am a writer who doesn’t write, an artist who doesn’t paint” (quote from my memory). I spent time on it, re-writing, but something eludes me. Something to help me understand the being hated core belief you have, being punished. I will re-read your accounts from before and come back to your thread soon enough, today.

anita