Hi Lisa,

Thank you so much for your response.

😉 I can’t always resist negativity, I wish I could. I don’t think you should feal like a failure. You can give up, but you don’t. You post on this forum to look for advise and help, not to complain. You feel a lot of pain but you don’t stop to try. I think that’s admirable ( I always think, Hero’s are people who fail but never stop trying).

I also had trouble with yoga and meditation. I couldn’t find the focus to start and I didn’t know anyone who could help me. I started going to the shooting range. If forced me to focus without confronting any emotions and I couldn’t just walk away if I stood there because there are always other people and it would look very strange If i walked away without shooting first. I did this for a year before starting with yoga. The first lessons I took my yoga teacher told me this was maybe to hard for me and advised me to maybe quit yoga (she didn’t advise me at all) this really made me feel very sad (and like a failure). I was trying so hard be she didn’t even took a minute of her time to help or advise me.

So….I’m not ‘able’  to do this well, even after a few years of yoga I am still trying very hard to not walk away from myself.

If you like, I would love it if we can share some experiences. Maybe also about our pasts but mostly about daily struggles and how you handle things, the things you try etc. For me feeling alone is a really hard subject to talk about because it makes me feel weak and failed (that I’m not able to solve this alone). Is it possible to do this through e-mail? It’s to hard for me to do all of this publicly.

Again thank you for your response and sharing your story (My apologies for my bad English).