Dear Gavin:

In your original post you wrote: ” the creativity I used to enjoy (music, art, writing), the things which used to drive my second life and gave me joy and hope beyond the day routine, to the point that I actually felt I may eventually find success making a living by those creative skills”-

My thoughts this morning: I understand losing motivation of any effort when not experiencing yet the benefits of such effort. The benefit you desired was “making a living by those creative skills”- and you haven’t. That in itself explains to me the loss of motivation.

My second thought which connects to my prior post to you: it will be helpful to you if you find a way, or ways, in your every day life to combine your creative nature (not limited to painting and music) with your … first life, not limiting it to an alternative “second life”.

anita