Thank you Anna and thank you Anita for replying. I’m a bit better knowing that it’s a part of the process I must face myself.

I’d like to add something I found on a website. Hopefully it will help me to forgive myself which is the hardest part of this healing.

“All of us have experienced trial and pain. All of us are living life wounded and scarred. We learn to deal with our wounds and press forward, but whether we acknowledge it or not, wounds and scars change us. There are no perfect parents. There are no perfect friends. There are no perfect siblings or spouses. We live in an imperfect world with imperfect humans. We lash out and hurt others because we are broken and in need of healing.

One of the most critical spiritual exercises we can undergo is allowing God to heal our past wounds and guide us to a lifestyle of forgiving present scars. Without healing and forgiveness, other people’s mistakes will affect our future. Without the inner working of the Holy Spirit, we will live in continual suffering from the sins of others.”

Bless you all . Best regards and thank you once again.

Gr8