I find myself in this place sometimes. I once reached out as you are now and someone said to me, “You’re right where you are supposed to be.”
You’re right where you are supposed to be. Sit on that for a little while. Where does all of the shame and guilt go? What if that was true? “I’m right where I am supposed to be?” “I’m right where I’m supposed to be.” I say it until I believe it or at least open the door to the idea that it might be true. It IS true. I say it until I’m smiling when I say it. I say it until I begin to feel alive and then I say it like I am celebrating that I AM EXACTLY WHERE I AM SUPPOSED TO BE.
I found this post because I was feeling similar to how you seem to be feeling tonight. When I read your post, that mantra automatically came pouring into my soul and I created an account here just so I could reply to you and say THANK YOU FOR REMINDING ME THAT I AM NOT ALONE AND THAT I AM RIGHT WHERE I AM SUPPOSED TO BE.
Now I get to spend the rest of my night with my most loyal friend, Gratitude.
Peace