Anita,

Sorry! Yes it is a typo. I wanted to say :

“I am very much afraid that in the future I won’t be able to meet someone better than him.”

You wrote : “you don’t have to let go. For as long as you need it to survive, keep it, be it in your mind only. Keep it going. If and when you are able and willing to examine or re-examine things, to decide what is true and real and what is not, to evaluate and decide, then do so and let go of what is not true or real.”

I understand. You want me to “end” this emotional relationship once I am emotionally ready, right? In my own timing. Not yours, or anyone else, but mine.

Once I am ready, I will be up for the discussion to examine things in a more healthy ways. I understand that this is what you are saying.

I think I successfully expressed my exact situation at the current moment to you. Since you are not invested in the relationship and not in a fake emotional relationship like me, do you still think it is a good idea to reach out to my ex boyfriend?

Or maybe … it will be better to wait it out once my emotional state gets a bit better … or maybe now is the right time?

Or maybe not contacting him at all is the best idea?

Thank you for recognising my honesty, it wasn’t easy sometimes to admit stuff that are happening with me.

-Mina