Reading a little bit again. He said the first time he didn’t feel so guilty and honestly he tells me he wouldn’t think about what he did often. It wasn’t killing him inside like it would be to me. Maybe because he’s a man? No clue how they think. I know men avoid drama at all cost and forget their mistakes way easier than women can. I don’t think he thinks what he did was SO TERRIBLE but only thinks it’s SO TERRIBLE because of how constantly I made him feel bad about it or how out of hand it would make me that he started feeling different about it. It also doesn’t help that you know every time he was doing what he did I was home watching TV, crying lol at home alone. Does that help anything not sure? If not back to my post above maybe you can explain a little better!