Hi Anita and all

Can’t believe it’s almost  3 months since  I last dropped  a message!

I hope by now Anita’s walking fast and healthy like before

I have always wanted to come back to leave a message, just want to say hi or  just simply to update my life to you a bit

I have been actively engaged in my marathon training, been quite nervous  and unsure if I can finish  it by the time limit, but well, it’s in 2 week’s time so i guess whatever that I can do, I have done it already. (having said that i still feel nervous thinking of the race)

and as for the new person, I think we are still friends and I still enjoy talking to her, but minus the feelings or hope for romantic relationship, which i feel proud  to  have adjusted well =)

Yesterday I had a nightmare dreaming of my  ex and my ex-fd, both of them seemed to be very friendly and kind towards me, but  it is exactly how  they look  from the outside that scared the  hell out of me. I remember having this feeling of trying to be normal and nice to them yet when i see their seemingly friendly face, I can’t help but asked ‘what do you two want from me?” I guess if they acted evil i would have thought otherwise. And I cried in the  dream and realized i woke up crying heavily too.

I think I am so traumatized by the incongruity between the outlook and the inside of  a person, thinking if i might have trust issue later on.

But once I get up, and back to my conscious self, it feels like nothing have happened, just an episode that quickly subsidized.

Anyways, I hope all is well with everyone, will share again if I can successfully complete my very first marathon.

All the best

Chau