This is so hard but my dog attacked another dog this afternoon. In addition he has been taking up so much of my life for the four months that we have had him. I thought I knew what I was getting into getting a dog but he has turned out to be so different than what I expected.  I get up every morning at 6:30 to take him out for an hour and a half to run. I take him to daycare 2 days a week and have a dog walker that comes for the other two. I work from home for the rest of them.  I’ve spent so many hours training him – he knows all of his commands. But I don’t get any joy out of this. He is just so much work all the time. And I feel disappointed in myself and I feel ashamed that I made this mistake with another being. But today he attacked another dog at the dog park and I just don’t think I can handle it. It’s so hard to describe all of this in a little Forum post. But Ive been doing my best and putting so much work into this dog and to have the horrifying experience of him attacking a super sweet and friendly dog neighbor has broke in my psyche. The added stress of him is just too much and it’s hard to admit that but then even harder to know what to do. I want to remain open-hearted and calm and not attached to the outcome of my actions but in this scenario I just don’t know what to do. It’s impacting my life and such huge ways a battle with depression and anxiety already and I thought that he would help but he’s not he’s made it much worse. My entire life at this point revolves around him. I just feel so disappointed. I really thought I was ready for this I waited so long. I feel like a failure it is an idiot.