Dear Tatjana:

I read your very first thread on the site, from December 2014, and your recent thread (before the Poems one). I was impressed, by the way, with the grace in which you responded to each and every person who replied to you. Back to the first thread: the issue of fear and love was brought up, and it was a meaningful concept for you on that thread.

In the bible, 1 John 4:18, it reads (one of the translations):

“There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love”

You were fearful in that relationship, throughout, as I understood it. More than a year after the breakup of that relationship, your eating disorder began. It is the same fear that changed context, as I understand it. Your lack of openness to love, which you mentioned on this post is probably a result of fear as well. The first relationship was such a torment (the word n the biblical quote), you fear more torment.

What do you think? If you agree about the power of fear in your life (it is most powerful in lots and lots of people’s lives), when and in what context did your excess fear originate?

anita