Hi,

Thanks for replying. It’s funny because the employer offered me counselling after putting me through all of this and the lady i spoke to said pretty much the same thing. I just do not know what to do. Every choice i make leads me to the wrong place eventually, i seem to bumble through life with a “cursed road-map”.

I know if i stay there is a fair chance that this will break me but i am not sure if just jacking next week will be any better.? I could possibly make a decision that could cost my family everything and i wonder if it is better that i just stick it out for them. But i cannot believe i am going through this, i have tried so hard in my life to work hard and not take advantage of people and look where i am now. Also is it really possible in life not to meet nasty, horrible, selfish people?

Contemplating suicide seems my only option, that or i have an accident and it ends that way.