Eliana and Anita,

Thank you for the support. Here is the update –

She texted me on Saturday that she misses me again and wants to see me. She came over in the evening. She wanted to go for a stroll in a nearby park. So we did. We were holding hands and walking (she was also texting this new guy at the same time). I had some hope as I thought she might give me some hints to fight for her. Later, we cooked together, ate together, watched a movie and cuddled (we did all this when we were just friends as well), and she slept over in the same bed (like we did even when we were just friends). Nothing else happened. However, while we were spending this amazing time together, I thought to myself that this is so meaningless. It is going to hurt me even more because I know that this is just for the night and it will wither away in the morning. I encountered strange emotions together – pain, numbness, confusion, fogginess, hopelessness.

However, while we were watching a movie (Forrest Gump), she hugged me and cried multiple times saying how will she manage life without me, and that she will miss me when she moves away and that no one is going to take care of her like I do. I did not know what was happening. I still do not know what really happened. Just random emotions while watching an emotional movie, or was there something deeper? I comforted her and hugged her for a really really really long time. This morning, when we were having breakfast, she said these words, exactly like this, “Should I call off the relationship with this other guy?”. These words came out after she was telling me that she doesn’t like some of the things that his new guy does, and I mostly agreed.

I did not know what to say, so I told her that I will keep her happy and she keeps me happy. We will be great together and that she should think of our lives 50 years down the road and that I want to grow old with her and spend the rest of my life being there for her. I agreed with her that she should break it off. I had never explicitly said that before. She said she couldn’t do it. Then I dropped her home, and had this urge to call her and ask her again whether she wants me to hold her hand and take her away from the guy, and whether there was even a remote chance of getting back together. I told her that I was willing to go to any length to get her back. All she had to do is give me one tiny hope. She got angry and hung up.

What is happening?