Thanks Anita. Somehow your explanations help me a bit. I try to heal but nights are the worst. When I know I can sleep calm and tomorrow is free, it’s fine but when I have to get up early or do some difficult work in the morning I can never sleep calmly. I wake up every 2 hours with my heart pounding and I’m having panic attacks. I always tried to just get back to sleep but it’s the same after that. Yesterday I tried to “watch” my panic attack like it’s not real and just my mind but I was too afraid of what is going on. I’m scared of this. I keep having nightmares at those nights too. I don’t know how to cope with it and not be scared. Someone told me to not go to sleep and not ignore it but just face it and accept it, similar as you say. How to do that, is it really the solution? Recently I think I’m going crazy, can’t control myself. I’m afraid when someone shouts in the street. It’s just a reaction, I’m not really afraid, just something happened to me and I’m scared of it. I don’t know how to go through with this.