Hi, the tics i’ve always described them to the doctors as voluntary the reason being is i understand involuntary to be muscle spasms contractions you cannot control. I could not shake those tics but i still chose to do them in a sense. It’s kind of like holding your breath. I can control your breath, and can hold your breath but it’s not a necessity it’s more a super strong compulsion.

I have no idea, what purpose i did. I remember when i was young one of the first times in school i poked a tongue out at a teacher, got caught and she  got upset. There was this game where i risked getting caught i found that compulsion being the platorm that resonated within me.

After that it morphed, and grew i had probable 3 to5 tics at once. Maybe more.Twich, neck, i would twist my foot when walking nearly every step, tongue, blinking, grimacing, head shaking, moaning and grunting. Those were the tics i had which spanned out and interchanged as time went by. Upon writing my first post above i made a connection to humiliation my dad imprinted in me and somehow a parallel of me continuing his work by taking on these tics. It’s just a theory not sure if it’s true or anything.