Thanks Anita for your advice and support. He had a difficult childhood and seems stuck..it’s like he’s never grown up. He lives with his dad and doesnt have any responsibilities…he likes to do what he wants to do, when he wants to do it and although in the beginning of our relationship he wanted to build a life with me, it’s seems he watches me financially struggle at times and be a grown up and he doesn’t want that stress. He is 39…almost 40. I kinda hoped I would be a good influence on him (in a supportive way) he is a musician and I’ve encouraged this however as the years have passed, he’s spent less and less time doing what he loves. At times I’ve blamed myself as that part of his life has waned throughout our time together but I think it’s more to do with his drug problem. He has told me he wants to pursue his music (and the rest that comes with it) and my life doesn’t fit. I am struggling to come to terms with how worthless it’s made me feel. I’ve always been supportive and not needy, I’m very independent and I’ve never pushed my life onto him however I feel like I’ve been ghosted. I made the mistake of falling in love with someone who I didn’t realise had so many problems and when o did, I was in too deep. I’m trying to move forward and focus on myself but there is a nagging hope that he will get in touch. To have some closure would be helpful..my logical brain understands I need to get away from him as his addiction has consumed my life however I’m feeling lost and alone right now. Advice on how to move forward and an outsiders opinions would be useful here as I’m confused as to why he has just turned his back on me like I don’t exist. Thanks