Hi Anita,

Sorry, let me explain what I meant to say a bit better.

My father, the person who put me through such an awful childhood is the person I am referring to as the person who cannot forgive themselves or move forward. I can now see, with all of the personal development I have been doing just how deeply traumatised  he must have been to treat me, my brothers and sisters the way he did.

In the end we all woke up wasn’t a nice experience as there was a lot of stuff that needed to surface, but, we did thankfully, So, instead of staying asleep and becoming the next dysfunctional generation, me and my siblings changed.

He, however, still lives in lala land and denies the fact that there is any fault on his end for everything he did to me and my siblings, the emotional abuse caused by his parenting has caused us all a lot of problems in life. Hence my initial reason for posting I don’t function very well around people at all, I freak out. Example, yesterday I was in a shopping centre I couldn’t function, its like I try to act so normal, I make it ten worse. I complete tense up, become really serious and I’m scared just incase I do or say the wrong thing. Im working on it I just hope I can change it.

Hope that explains it better 🙂