Kodenamekid,

What anita said… and you might want to try starting with one person to make friends with or at least to start talking to in person.  Also check out the Metta Meditation for that helps with anxiety and self-love.

I learned in my 40s (I suspect you are a lot younger) that it took so much energy to try to be accepted by others and monitor my words and behavior constantly when I am around people.  I learned to let that go.  I have found that I started attracting people who liked me for me.

I also worked on the notion of not caring what other people think of me.  What is the worse can happen?  In some ways my life won’t be much worse or I would think less of myself.  Plus it was more important for me to actually live as myself rather than working on being small and hiding from the world.

Mark