Dear NamesAreOverrated:

It seems to me that you believe that if only you could talk to your brother, then you will know if he is a pedophile and upon such a conversation or conversations problems will be resolved. What if it will not be so at all?

And you believe that you “coming forward” will result in your brother and your parents committing suicide (“it would definitely make my brother kill himself. It would quite possibly make my parents do the same”).

You are too afraid to share here what your brother said and did that you consider creepy and you are afraid to share that with a psychotherapist in fear of … your brother and parents killing themselves.

Maybe your fear will diminish if you challenge your belief that the three will kill themselves if you share what your brother said and did that was creepy. What evidence do you have that these three people are ready to end their lives upon you sharing here on this thread or elsewhere, and getting (elsewhere) professional help for yourself and professional advice on the matter?

anita