I also wanted to add something about when we would argue/ when i would be upset about something. Whenever I would get upset about something, even if it wasn’t a huge deal, he would as I said go straight to just blaming himself and say he is the worst. but he would also often times hit himself in the head, really hard, over and over. I know this is not healthy. And i am so upset at myself for not telling someone about this – but i didn’t know what to do i guess. But anyways, he would do that, sometimes hit the wall or throw things ( not at me) and would lock himself in another room where I could not get to him. At one point ( I don’t remember what the problem was) he began to hold his breath for long periods of time, to the point where it seemed he would be close to passing out. All of this happened when me, or someone else in his life, was upset at him. Even as I’m writing this i’m feeling so horrible about not letting someone know this was happening, because i know how unhealthy it is that he is doing this. but i felt it might explain the situation more, so I wanted to mention that.