Yes totally.

We have one mutal friend she called saying please can i unblock him or he said hes coming over. I told her im very serious and i want nothing to do with him. Which she told him, aprantly he is angry saying i used him for two years and im acting like a baby and how dare i do this to him again. He said everyone thinks im so nice but im actually not.

I do feel guilty , i hate the thought he is bad mouthing me to her but know this is his process of him letting go i gather?

I did tell her id rather not know what he says so i can keep guilty feelings away and keep peace in my heart. I know i never ever used him and i know i am a nice person and right now its best i focus on that. Thanks anita.