I’m only 22 years old, I did quite a while of different drugs (party and fun purpose only). My advice for a 52 years old man is probably not the best :p But I can say that this party period made me look differently at life. Your thoughts are intense and different when on drugs, it may change the way you feel about life and yourself. In many circumstances drugs negatively influence your brains, but experienced spiritual people may use it to think differently and perhaps find answers or insights.

I wouldn’t bother to much about the drugs, I don’t think it’s the right way to achieve spiritual goals either. What is it You’re looking for? What do you want to achieve if I may ask? I’m just being curious.