Hallo Airene ,

thank you so much for ur comment .this comment will be a bit long .

i am guilty because i know he is very sensitive and he had told me bfore he won’t be able to live it’s hard fr him i just think how is he doing ? If he is hurting frm this break up ? I dnt want to hurt anyone.

He was good and bad both i can say . He loves me alot and care for me may be .treats me like his princess . I remember when our relationship started i used to compare his treatment wd my exes nd i found he really loves me .

We were in  relationship from last 2,5 months.i become now a different person .it was February when we started this relationship.before that i was a girl with passion,had confidence,motivated,care free and drama free kinda person ,i used to go library daily for 3-7 hours,cooked most of the time dressed up i wanted to look good and infrnt of mirror i thought i am beautiful.who would only start having fun whenever she hang out with her friends or family or people .and used to laugh with others.

but now nt more ,i have no energy to get up from bed from last two weeks i was weeping all day  i started feeling i am alone in this whole world,i have no friends no family.because of his insecurity nd jealousy nd contrtrolling nature he accused me with my guys friends or  with my cousin .i stopped my all social contacts.

his all day checking my mobile more than his own mobile.snooping .deleting or texting people he even blocked my cousin. I know he flirts sometimes but he was the one who sent me money when i financially disturbed he sent me 1000 euro last month .nd i went wd my bf to receive tht money.

meanwhile i was financially broke and couldn’t find job as i was 24/7 with his drama .

my study got badly effective.because he wanted to be all 24/7 with me and called me after every 30 mints in a day and would ask me to tell him what i am doing and what i was doing from last few hours . I mean in a day whenever he calls he ll ask everything and then with that everything he has 1000 problems that why i am talking to tht person who is he or she whr they live .how do u know them and most torturing question fr me was „how come they contacted u today i never heard abt them frm u „?

So i went to doctor for my mental health bcz i was shouting,being mad , frustrated irritated frm him .i was totally boycotting Social life . Nd was talking to him all day .i was calling my family once a week .

my doctor recommended me Psychologist and therapy but i couldn’t get any appointment and i m lost  I m taking antidepressant tablets now

Nd i feel guilty also that i once or twice blamed him for my condition.may b i am wrong to do so but i feel helpless whn i cm to discuss smthng wd him till i dnt shout he doesnt believed me or stopped arguing . Ther was always arguing bt never a result . .