Is there something more to this Happi, than it seems? From all you have said, It seems like he is your comfort zone and you don’t want to leave him because it will be difficult to be on your own. The moment there were questions in your mind regarding him, the trust you had was broken and that Happi cannot be rebuilt unless you get a reason to believe in him.

if you have diabetes, why are you running to the sweets again?

sorry for food references but if I was in your place, I would have stayed away from the mess that has been created. It is so taxing, In your very first note, you said he is my best friend my soulmate. And that is why you waited for him.

If he thought of you in the same manner, he would have rather worked on making your marriage a possibility rather than going out with others. The relationship was over, I agree but both of you had set some rules and he could not follow through.

It is even hurting you physically, now is the time, you tell us everything that went around. Was he always trying to get you to be physically active with him? I know how it is still an issue in our country and how it can affect someone’s mind if that is the case.

I feel there is a lot more in your mind that is stopping you, we don’t know you personally and thus you can say it all and not feel ashamed, and definitely not feel judged.