Dear Misanthrope:

A smile is far from an indication of happiness. Far from it. So you will be trying something after all, morphine. You are not done trying then. A decade ago I tried a narcotic, a very strong narcotic. I have never felt that good before or since. It was an incredible feeling I didn’t know was possible. I was surprised, had no idea it was possible to feel that way, no trouble whatsoever, all was good and it lasted hours and hours and into the next day. Then the good feeling weakened. Of course, I took more of that stuff and felt as good all  over again. Oh how incredibly delightful. I would have taken that stuff again and again for the rest of my life, no doubt.

Problem is the fourth or fifth time I vomited. I tried again and vomited again, no good feeling.

Shame. I understand this is the norm, the good feeling doesn’t happen again and again after the introduction period. Somehow, the brain/ body says: not that easy! I am getting you back to feeling the way you used to!

anita