That ex is not worth your time. He treated you badly, and frankly its sounds a bit like he used the fact that you were raped to victim-shame you and wash his hands of you as if you were at fault here, to get out of a relationship that he wasn’t much into in the first place. Good riddance.

I would read anitas suggestions closely and check what you can learn from this situation. Also please get into contact with a rape victim support line, I think you don’t realize what was done to you yet. Its the first step to get through this.

How are you doing lately?