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March 7, 2020 at 5:25 am #341972
Maybe I should add that it made me angry because I think its thoughtless towards the staff working there. On the one hand its their job to clean everything up, on the other hand people should take responsibility for their own actions.March 2, 2020 at 9:34 am #340930
I disagree a bit with the others in this case. I wonder if its really the right move to just drop her. So I wanted to ask: To what extend have you tried to set boundaries? Was it in a situation where you both were calm and relaxed (and not exchanging blaming all around?) Did you tell her everything you wrote here?
Would it be an option to show her this thread?
The reason I am writing this is that we all grow. I guess you can’t change anyone but maybe she didn’t get the message yet and thus won’t have a chance to change (whether you drop her or not). Thats my two cents, of course it is your right to choose and end friendships as you like.February 8, 2020 at 7:46 am #337126
sorry if this threat made you feel shameful, I am sure noone here wanted to hurt you. Personally I just wanted to give you my take on what I read in your posts, and I might well be wrong in interpreting what I have read. You have been pretty brave and open so far and I am glad you continue wrting here.
I am a bit short on time today but just wanted to say a few things:
You dodged a bullet with loosing that job, I am 100% sure. three 12-hour shifts in a row? Thats a recipe for even mentally stable people to loose it long term. I know entry lvl jobs can be tough, but I take tough to be “doing the dumb work noone else likes but needs to get done during a normal 8 hour shift with breaks, tea, some boredome etc.”
I believe (and this might have come up here before, sorry) that you need a therapist (CBT?). Why? Because you need someone consistently in your corner that you see regulary face to face. Is that something that you can afford or that your parents could help you affording?
February 6, 2020 at 9:08 am #336934
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sorry that you have to go through this. Pain no matter if physically or mentally is distressing. I learned this when I had problems with my knees, I thought it would never ever get better, only worse. My brain told me all kinds of stories how I would not be able to keep a job because of the pain, never be able to do certain things again etc. But it did get better, even if not perfect.
I would look into what you can do to make the pain better (nutrition, walks in nature, sports?). And also if a different doctor can give you more advice, if you feel the meds are not working well. Your current medication might even be the cause of your mental distress as a side effect.
For the negative thoughts I reccomend looking into ways to deal with them, for example cognitive behavior theraphy. Or if you can’t afford theraphy, David Burns wrote a good book called “Feeling good: the new mood theraphy”. It explains well how you can write down your thoughts and reflect on them, maybe you can find it at your local library.
Also take one moment at a time, you don’t need to solve everything today.January 20, 2020 at 10:09 am #334321
thank you for getting back to me about my question. Your original question, the title of your thread was “Am I too sensitive? Being blocked on Facebook?” Looking at all you wrote I don’t think so, but.
I think you have been lonely at college, and it hurts being lonely. Feeling excluded is very tough on social animals like us humans. It’s a cliché but true that thousands of years ago being excluded from a group meant mortal danger and our body still reacts accordingly. I would also assume that this wasn’t how you expected college to be like. So here is facebook guy, having it all with his group of close friends, posting about how he cares for people and at the same time treating you like this! How frustrating! So you lashed out, “do you realize you treat people like shit?” I think it wasn’t facebook guy in particular. It was him, his friends, your roommate, her friend club girl and all the other people who for some reason or another ignored you. You had enough and decided to take a stand. Which is great: no more just taking it, you were taking a stand, calling him out with (and here I am making an assumption) maybe also a vague idea of renegotiating the relationship “you say you care for people, why not –ME-?” makes sense to me. The thing is he too is a person, with a right to accept and reject people as he sees fit for himself. He can even avoid people he doesn’t feel comfortable with for some reason. And suddenly you realize you “made this 10x worse” for yourself. So taking a stand this time didn’t work. I would chalk it up to a learning experience. The intention was good (not taking everything) but maybe the approach can be improved upon. You could think about what you would do different in a similar situation. Once you are done with that, no more staying awake about this.
In the meanwhile the situation changed and maybe facebook guy is not so important anymore anyway. You wrote ”well, now what?” I would say take one step after another, nothing else to do. Figure it out one after another. Do you already have some plans?
As for therapy, I had those ”well, now what?” times too. Traditional talk therapy for me was all about talking about the past and it got me a bit further, but didn’t help in the present much. It was only with Cognitive behavioral therapy that I got real hands-on advice for the present, and that’s what I would advise for you too. Also different therapist can vary in quality and how they fit with different clients.
Full disclosure: I have my own thread on loneliness here, so when I give advice I feel a bit like a hypocrite. But thought I would write down my thoughts anyway.January 13, 2020 at 10:23 am #333159
finding a job after university can be so difficult! Hang in there! Maybe you can get an entry level job in marketing?
Did you talk with your profs about going into research, ask them for advise? Even if you finished your studies, you can still do that usually, talk to them I mean.
Also I don’t know if this is available in your country, but check if there are people who can advise you. Voluteers who advise and coach jobless people, goverment paid advise, forums for job seekers in your country, or even your family and friends. Talk to people instead of trying to do it all alone, even though it can be hard at first.January 13, 2020 at 10:14 am #333157
Dear Janine, I would like to comment on your posts but I have a question first if you don’t mind: the guy you had the confrontation with, can you explain in what ways he treated you badly? Was it “only” the incident on the stairs when you greeted him or other incidents as well? And if so, what happened? Sorry if you allready wrote this before and I missed it.January 3, 2020 at 10:19 am #330949
I don’t have much to add since anita said it all. I am just here to give you a virtual hug. I hope you manage to find things (hobbies, volunteer work, group activities etc.) where your focus can shift to other things for a while.January 3, 2020 at 10:16 am #330947
sorry for the late reply but I don’t log in here often I am afraid.
I am still not quite sure what you mean when you say “people who think they understand but only intellectualize what i tell them”. When you mentioned “As a great master once said, sharing the truth of the self to the wrong person is like putting a million volts through a electric shaver. It explodes.” I immediately thought of this in terms of someone enlightened (e.g.) Jesus saying something but its missinterpreted and causes great pain. For example I think I can safely generalize that Christianity did in the past cause great pain missinterpretating Jesus. Is that the kind of impact you mean? You later mentioned that you want “want recognition/reliance” and don’t want people “stealing” your knowledge. So I don’t think at this point I have grasped the outcome you are worried about. Do you worry about a negative impact for yourself? Or for other people?
As for your brother, from the situation your described, I wouldn’t say he tried to take advantage of you. Or maybe not in the way you seem to take it, him wanting to steal something, take it without giving something (recognition?) back.What I interpret from your description instead is this: Your insecure brother was in a stressful situation for him. He turned to his brother, but beeing the shy/insecure person he is, he won’t say “Dear brother, I felt insecure in this situation. What should I do better next time?” Very few people do that, take the direct approach. maybe because they are afraid to be vulnerable. Still he wanted to voice the topic, see if you are willing to get into it. And you were (“i opened up a discussion about anxiety and my experience on it and let him know alot about it.”).
So in this case I wouldn’t read too much into it. But maybe instead of opening up a general discussion and talk about your experience, how about turning that question back on him? “Yes I notice it quite often that people are anxious, actually. You seemed to be a bit anxious yourself earlier, how come? Don’t you like (Person X)?”
As a sidenote I do wonder if he wondered if you were anxious, since you didn’t take part in the conversation between him and his friend.
One more thought on this: ” The feeling of giving away some information which they should be able to solve on their own, and relying on me solving it for them in the guise of other people or manipulative ways.” This is something I experienced with my father in a bit different way. Him wanting something for example and not saying “Could you bring X?” but instead “You could bring X, you know.” (Can’t really phrase it well) So I feel I get the frustration when you think “You want something, freaking ask and don’t go about it this roundabout way” . Maybe calling them out on it (gently) might be one way for you to go. E.g. in my example: Ah you would like me to bring X for you?
What I disagree on with you is that you expect people to solve things on their own. Problem solving for me is one part reflection, but a bigger part team effort in some form or another (talking to friends/releatives/strangers/therapists/teachers etc., reading other peoples thoughts, observing).December 28, 2019 at 4:56 am #329927
I am mostly a lurker in the forums but its allways great when you write something, so I will miss you!
But on the other had sounds like you are going on a holiday so enjoy your timeout. 🙂December 28, 2019 at 4:52 am #329925
I am not in the situation your are in, no experience living in a third world country but I wanted to comment on your post. If I write something offensive just take what you find useful and discard the rest.
Your “friend” is not really a friend imo. Maybe she tried to shake you up a bit to get you moving, but frankly its not working, obviously, and its pulling you down. She basically told you what a depression would tell you “other people work harder than me”, “if only I hadn’t moved back home” , “I made so many poor choices” classic depression thoughts. You don’t need that influence.
Obesity can pull you down even further when you are allready down so I would like to suggest to you to check out nutritionfacts.org/topics , especially the infos on beans and weight loss. You might not have access to all the food suggested there, but I believe improving your diet even a little can improve your overall well-beeing.
In general small steps as anita wrote is the way to go. Personally I set just one goal for myself every day, one thing that definetly needs to get done. Or make a list of really small goals, but not more than three. If you have a really good run you can add more goals when you finished those and feel like it.December 28, 2019 at 4:33 am #329921
you mentioned the “ego-mind” so I assume you are coming from a point of buddhism, Eckhard Tolle etc. I am most unfortunately not one of the enlightened in that aspect, but what I do know is this: even on Eckhard Tolles website you have to pay for membership if you want to access certain videos. So even he feels comfortable to take some token of recognition/appreciation.
But the thing I thought when reading your post was that while I believe you that you struggled to get to know what you do now, usually we don’t learn in a vacuum. We read books, watch films, talk to people about our problems, see how other people solve their problems. You have reached a certain lvl but if now you sit on your knowledge how will you go on growing? You have theories on life but I believe they can best improve when you tell them to other people, see how they are received and reflect upon that. While you are giving a lot, you will also receive feedback and questions that will lead you further. So sharing is in itself not a bad thing. But I understand you want recognition for what you are giving, that people don’t just take your advice and pretend its theirs but say “crawford told me this” and to be genuinly interested in not only your advise, but also you. I am afraid I don’t have an answer to that, how you can make your ego not crave this. It sounds only human to me. But maybe you can remember you are also getting something in return by voicing your ideas out loud.September 10, 2019 at 10:42 am #311327
I will try this out with a new hobby. But its a big group that changes constantly, not exactly in my neighborhood (but near my work) so not sure how that will work out in terms of making “deeper” connections. I am living in a big city, but somehow it’s more difficult to connect than at the time when I lived in a smaller city.September 10, 2019 at 10:38 am #311325
thank you, I agree that it can also be good to be alone at times, for myself I know that I need time to recharge alone regulary.
You are right, its a lack of closer friendships. I would like to have friends that I could just message “hey what about a movie on thursday?” people to celebrate birthdays with (don’t get me wrong, I celebrate with my family, so not alone in that aspect) or to meet to cook and chat together. I don’t know how to get there. Sometimes I try and make stupid mistakes, so I am a bit tired of trying, too.September 10, 2019 at 10:31 am #311321
I think you are right in a sense. I believe a parent helps a child to reflect on what happened, for example at school, and find a solution. But in this case, concerning interaction with other pupils, her advise usually wasn’t very helpful. My sister certainly was able to give better advise to my nephew.
Still my mother is only part of the puzzle in this case. Other children would have developed better in this environment, my siblings certainly did.