Hi Anita,

If he showed up at my door I don’t know if I would cry, or be angry…

Cry, because I would be relieved feeling that he made a mistake and this torture I am going through would be over~ the wandering what I did wrong to make him leave and the relief from the feelings of pain I go through each day.

Anger from what he has put me through, lies/cheating & all the other things that go with it, not to mention I don’t think I could ever trust him again…

I don’t know what I would do…I do know I would more and likely be a fool if I did take him back if he were to ask.

I want to make it clear he has done nothing to give me the impression he wants to come back, he never calls/texts or makes any effort to contact me…I think that hurts and causes the most pain~

I think what really bothers me is him marrying this girl because he always wanted to marry me…The few times we did speak he would always say several times “We will never get back together and I have moved on” to the point I wanted to ask him why he always said that to me, not just once, but several times…and I started to think maybe he is trying to prepare mr for something…That’s why I feel so upset sometimes, because then I know there would never be any type chance for us to be together.

Bella~