Dear Anita, thank you for saying this (again). My friend called and I feel better. I understood he acted very childish blaming me and saying I’m responsible for that he did this and that. Also I understood what he did that got me so depressed: he blamed me. for not missing him, for not having feelings for him, for not caring, for not being able to fall in love, for using him (?!), for not staying for the night. and what I do when someone blames me: I start to apologize, cry, panic, feel guilty, become obsessive and aggressive and I’ll literally do anything for this person to forgive me and take me back, and I can’t go on with my life until he or she forgives me for what I am without doubt guilty of. So yeah, that is absolutely the worst person I could have in my life ever. Anita, that’s what I was telling earlier. How can I know living alone will be easier when there are a lot of people around who will play the role of my mother to me and manipulate me. And they will put me down everytime. I try to see more, and be more mindful and this still happens. Did this happen to you?