Dear Anita,

Thank you for the suggestion re: Tai Chi. I tried it many years ago, and have been thinking about giving it another shot. I have been getting into yoga, and found that it helps to develop mindfulness and manage “stiffness” in the body. I do miss the strategic/”playful” aspect of martial arts and want to explore a couple of options given my condition (including Tai Chi, and japanese sword). It sounds like you stopped practicing, may I ask why if you are open to sharing on that?

And thank you for the positive reinforcement re: my decision. I struggled to get there, and to be honest I need to remind myself  several times a day that things will be ok if I do not get a response or if things end here. Even though I truly believe in and try to practice “letting go”, it still hurts. I am told this gets easier with time 🙂

As you might be guessing I have not heard back as of yet. Some of my friends and family are advising to “forget about her” and “move on”. But I find it impossible / undesirable to “forget”, that would be like “denying” a story and feelings that were true and meaningful to me. At the same time, “moving on” in this situation feels like moving from A to B, where B is still unknown (that’s ok) but A is also not clear (that’s frustrating). Perhaps I am too hung up on “what could have been” instead of “what actually was” in this relationship.

ME