I think so too. And truthfully I think ppl try and make me feel bad about that. But I’ve came to realize. I’m someone who doesn’t have an issue being alone. I just..don’t want to. I don’t like it. I like having an intimate connection with someone. I have great friends, I always have, but it’s a different interaction.

Being a person who I feel didn’t ever experience true expressive love. And spent the greater part of my life alone and without outward expressions of affection to me from others. When I came to college. I liked it. I enjoy it. I also like hanging out with guys. I always have. One of my truest best friends I’ve ever had was in high school & was a guy. But then in this time frame everything gets complicated cuz I end up having feelings for ppl I shouldn’t sometimes.

I’ve ran across good ppl, and messed things up because the bad ppl who gave me more direct attention. Even when their intentions for me weren’t as good

but I am tired of feeling like I’m a awful person because I consciously can say I want to be in a relationship. I love, love. And I love being loved. Our experiences shape us and everyone is different. My experiences made me have an attachement to relationships because of the way I was treated as a kid I think. The idea that someone I want. Wants me. And we continuously want each other. I love that shit.

I could do myself a favor and not love it at my own expense.

But I am Libra. We are the love sign lol.

My thing I need to work on is when to heed the red flag and walk away from ppl.

Ill try what u suggested.