Dear Annie:

I understand you wanting to end your pain, I did too and it was a tempting thought for me as well. Thing is, your pain will end, for sure as would mine. Death will happen, I do not intend to rush it. For now, I let it happen when it will. Yet, it is a comforting feeling, isn’t it, knowing that the pain will end for sure.

But for now, let’s make  our lives the best lives we can make of it. You value it  so much that he used to listen to you. Another man will listen to you, it can happen. Right hereon your thread I am listening to you. It is happening right now that you are being listened to. Not in person, I am not a man and I am not close to you so I can hold your hand and give you a hug, but it is something, not nothing, that I listen to you, or read your writing attentively.

And so, we can have a little something right now, and a little something later in the day, something meaningful happening. Find that meaning throughout the day, here and there, we need meaning.

You “could have just stayed”, you left a bad situation so to have a better life. Thing is, you left something bad behind you but you didn’t move toward something good. So you are left with some good memories and nothing good happening right now.

This is why I suggested finding a meaning right now, later on, finding something to move toward so that you are not stuck anymore.

anita