So this week I discovered an ex boyfriend passed away 2 years ago by suicide . He was I guess my first love when I was 18.  We went out for less than a year and then he broke things of to go back with his ex whom he was with since and had 2 kids with.  I was heartbroken at the time.  This was many years ago now and since I have been happily married for ten years.  We lost touch over the years but I would still think of him time to time.  What has surprised me is the emotion and sadness I am feeling now, the heart ache of loosing him all those years ago has resurfaced.  I feel heartbroken for him and his family and the heart brake they most be going through.  I feel like I need to create some closure on this but not sure how to go about it.