Hi Airene!

I think that trips me up is the “doing it” part… it’s sort of like — it sounds so foreign sometimes, like, what is it supposed to mean, to “feel happy with oneself”? The other part I guess I will have to admit is me not fully recognizing what exactly is wrong. Like, I can’t differentiate how I perceive my actions to look like from what other people do (it was blatant when I was younger but not so much now).

I think I’m getting there, but super slowly. One of the hardest things for me is to sit down and actually see that there are things I actually have done wrong, it’s hard/painful to see all the ways I crippled myself (in addition to what was done to me) because at that point I just didn’t know better. The other thing is actually to know what I like or dislike, because sometimes I just don’t know…